I can’t even remember what my laugh sounds like… Is that bad?
“There is always a reason to smile, so find it.” — this quote always inspires me. It lets me know that everything is going to be okay and that I just have to find what’s worth smiling about in my life. But the problem is that I can’t find anything right now. I’ve tried so hard to find something, but can’t. I’m too far deep into this dark world.
It sucks to know that you have no one in your life to face this with.. I’m all alone.
I could be gone one day and you wouldn’t even notice.
You’re my friend.. You’re supposed to know the difference between my real smile and fake smile. But you can’t even tell that I’ve been hurting or feeling lost in the world. Hell, you haven’t even noticed that I haven’t been smiling at all.
Realizing that I don’t smile and laugh as much as I used to. I used to laugh so hard that I would start crying. That hasn’t happened in a long time. And I haven’t had a real smile in a while either. Everything is just so fake now. I’m hiding behind a fake smile.
You can’t see me hurting, but truth is, I’m just really good at putting a smile on and hiding it. Deep down, I’m dying inside.